Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Haunted House

The fallen leaves crunch like

Dry, brittle bones beneath the

Heavily booted feet that move

Toward groaning, sagging stairs

That lead to eerily empty rooms

With faded and peeling wallpaper;

Dust choked mantles stand guard

Over soot blackened fireplaces;

Furniture lies rotten and broken

Across the water damaged floors;

A letter yellowed by time lies

Torn and unfinished in a drawer;

Glass broken in over the years

Shines dully through the grime;

A broken doll lies in disarray,

Her arms and legs at odd angles,

Her face ravaged by the elements,

And blue eyes now clouded grey;

From the attic to the basement,

A mystery here resides with the

Ghosts of the past ever present.

Apple Tree

There is an apple tree

Rooted within my heart

And for eighteen years

All it’s seen is winter

Its bark is like granite

Its branches always bare

No fruit has grown here

In all my lonely years

But there was potential

And you could see that

Even though I thought

That it was hopeless

I thought my tree dead

But you wouldn’t listen

And you swept in with

Your sunlight and rain

And you washed away all

Remnants of suffering

And I finally put forth

New leaves and fruit in

Celebration of our spring

Rewrite: A Dance of Time

They face like fighters in a ring, muscles taunt and eyes wary as they begin to circle. A man and a woman, the age old couple. It’s a dance of power, a dance of passion. One moves. It’s a cautious testing of the waters – easily dodged. They’re only focused on one another, looking for any shift of weight that might give away the next move. They’re en sync, perfectly matched in these easy moments of playful swipes.

 

Then the feel of the fight changes and it’s almost tangible. A silent challenge is issued. He lunges, a graceful, lethal ripple of muscle as he reaches for her. She moves quickly so that he only has possession of her wrist instead of all of her. She can almost feel the annoyance rolling off of him in waves of heat for having not obtaining more of her. In a way, it is a sort a heat – the heat of two bodies beginning to entwine in something that is brazenly primal.

 

They continue to circle, the woman leaning away from her captor, nearly all of her weight supported solely by the strength of his grip. He could release her at any moment, let her fall to the ground, but there is an unspoken knowledge that he wouldn’t let go – he wouldn’t give her up so easily. He lunges forward again, and their eyes lock as he pulls on her arm, acting as a counter balance while his free hand reaches for and captures her other wrist. His fingers are like flesh-covered steel, so strong, so relentless. The struggle to be free has started - the real fight has begun.

 

Her anger and her instincts guide her as she moves with mounting aggression. She uses her weight, her flexibility, and her knowledge of her opponent to her advantage. She wrests her wrist free of his grasp and she turns, but that doesn’t stop him. He’s used to her tricks, they’re second nature to him now and he knows how to work with them or against them. He catches her again, changes his grip, and forces her to cross her arms over her chest. But it isn’t over.

 

It’s never over.

 

She squirms, not giving up, looking for any weakness. Her nails search for tender flesh, finds it, and pierces it – but he only laughs. She throws her weight against his arms, forcing him to either support her or release her, but he pulls her arms tight around herself, pulling her tighter against his chest. Supporting her.

 

They pause, more of her wanting to do so than his, but he waits, his hands acting as shackles, almost bruising. He doesn’t loosen, doesn’t move – just waits with infinite, infuriating patience. She’ll start up again when she’s ready. She’ll renew her efforts when she thinks he’s not paying attention. Or she’ll give up, give in, and try again. But for now, she stays there, cradled in the shelter of his body. It’s simple. It’s beautiful. It’s unchoreographed. A lull in a violent storm. And for a moment, it’s perfect.

 

He lets her go as if they had reached some silent agreement. She turns on the balls of her feet in a movement of pure grace that leaves them facing one another once more. Taking a few steps back, she raises her eyes to his and their gazes lock. They start again. A closed circuit of passion and power. Man and woman. Woman and man. The primal dance of time.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Yearly Reflections

This year was like every year in the sense that during this year a lot happened. This year is different in how much the events of this year have changed me. So here's a moment to reflect on this past year:

  • I wasn't arrested this year.
  • I didn't go to the emergency room this year.
  • I was a part of the Metro Nashville Honors Orchestra.
  • I went to NSA's prom, April 12th.
  • I met Jerry, Kris, Coty and Dan.
  • I turned eighteen.
  • I got my ears pierced a second time.
  • I graduated NSA on May 14th.
  • I had oral surgery to remove my wisdom teeth May 15th.
  • I attended TenRen.
  • I started dating Jerry May 18th.
  • I celebrated Jerry's 25th birthday with him, his family, and his friends on May 26th.
  • My grandmother was diagnosed with cancer again.
  • I had knee surgery on June 9th.
  • I had to go through physical therapy.
  • I went downtown for 4th of July.
  • I attended East Tennessee State University orientation.
  • I attended Eddie Izzard with Jerry.
  • My sister got married August 2nd.
  • I got to go Gatlinburg for the first time in years.
  • I started college at East Tennessee State University on August 25th.
  • I joined the Fencing club at ETSU.
  • I started ballroom dancing. Tango's still the best.
  • Eli and Jerry visited me at college.
  • I had one of the best Halloween ever.
  • I went home for Thanksgiving.
  • I went ice skating with friends.
  • I went bowling with friends.
  • I survived Freshman Finals.
  • I came home for winter break.
  • I spent Christmas with my family and Jerry's.
  • I've met the vast majority of Jerry's family.
  • I lost a lot of great friends but I gained a lot of new ones.
  • I learned a lot of things in class and a lot of things out of class.
  • I learned a lot of things about myself.
  • I met the love of my life.
  • I'll keep growing and keep looking to the future.
  • I'll take each day as it comes and look forward to the next day.